I have her number. I have had it on a card in my kitchen drawer since Gerald’s funeral in 2019.
ITEM 13. THE THING I HAVE NOT TOLD HIM.
I did not find that list in his coat pocket in the March by accident.
I have let everybody — my daughter, the solicitor, the woman at the shop who apologised to me — believe that I took a coat to be cleaned and found a piece of paper.
What happened is that in the February I noticed he had told me the same thing twice in one afternoon.
Then in the March he could not remember that my husband had gone, and asked me how Ron was, and I said Ron was fine.
I said Ron was fine.
That night I went home and I did not sleep, and on the fourth of March I went over on a pretext and I went through that coat while he was in the other room.
