I passed Pip to Rory, very carefully, and walked round the side of the house.
And I stopped.
Our neighbour, Glenys Pryor, was halfway over the fence.
Her flowery blouse was caught on a nail at the shoulder.
And beside her feet on my side of the fence were two enormous bags — the heavy woven kind you get from a garden centre — both of them full of my husband’s apples and pears.
I said: what are you doing?
She looked at me as though I had walked in on something perfectly ordinary. Hanging out washing. Putting a bin out.
She said: don’t be selfish, Delyth.
She pointed at the bags. She said: I’m going to sell them. I need the money.
I said: you could have asked.
She shrugged. She said: would you have said yes?
I said: no.
I said: my children eat that fruit. Their father planted those trees and looked after them every day for eleven years.
And she rolled her eyes and said:
Well, he’s not here any more, is he?
For a second I could not say anything at all. I think I actually swayed.
Then she said: most of it would only rot anyway.
Behind me, Rory was still holding his dad’s cap and his little sister.
I saw his fingers go tight on the peak of that cap. White at the knuckles.
That was enough.
I stepped between him and her.
I said: those trees are not yours.
And she gave me an irritated look and said: and this property isn’t yours either.
I did not understand that one and I did not stop to. I pointed at the fence.
I said: leave the fruit. Get out of my garden. And don’t come back.
She scoffed. She said: grief’s made you unreasonable.
I did not argue. I just pointed again.
Go.
In the end she climbed back over, muttering, and left the two bags where they were, and I thought that was the end of it.
I was wrong.
PART 2
Before it was light the next morning, Rory came into my room and shook my shoulder.
He said: Mum. Mum.
I opened my eyes.
He said: I heard something outside. A really loud noise. Like something falling over.
He looked frightened, and he had his dad’s cap on, and it came down over his ears.
I kissed his forehead and put my dressing gown on and went downstairs.