At eighty my stomach grew so large my family got frightened. The scan found something — and then a twelve-year-old record with my late husband’s name on it, and a folder called PROJECT AGNES.

“Aggie. Can I ask you something?”

“Go on, love.”

And she looked at my middle and did not pretend she was not looking at it.

“Have you talked to anybody about that?”

I laughed at her. “Soraya, I’m eighty. Nothing’s where it was.”

And that woman did not laugh back, which stopped me.

“Please get it looked at.”

I said I would. I did not.

Three nights after that I woke up at about two in the morning with a pressure in my middle that I had never had before.

And then something moved.

That is the only way I can put it. There was a shift, and then a sort of settling, and then a fullness that made it impossible to get comfortable on any side.

I put my hand flat on my stomach.

And it moved again. Under my own hand, through my own nightdress.

I lay in that bed in the dark at eighty years of age and I was properly frightened for the first time since my sister Noemi.

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